Blog Post 2
“Make a careful
exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink
yourself into that.
Don't be impressed with
yourself. Don't compare yourself with others. Each
of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your
6: 4-5, The Message Bible
Sometimes I know the
exact point I want to proclaim; I have such clarity at that moment and by the
time I get around to writing about it, it’s gone. I am not sure if this is an
early sign of dementia, having 3 children, or God telling me to slow down!
Regardless of that, I want to explain Who I Am and where I have come from to
create some transparency with this blog.
I recently wrote a little
excerpt for my church bulletin regarding discipleship, but it really ended up focusing
on my identity in Christ. Probably because when I wrote that I was struggling
with leaving my job and starting something new. Not being able to identify
myself with what I did or where I worked brought up feelings of inadequacy, but
staying complacent with what I did brought up feelings of restlessness.
So, “Who Am I?” The simple fact is I am a child
of God. Although, I have known this since I was 6 or 7 years old I wasn’t
resting in this truth. We discover who we are, when we discover whose we are. I
was resting in self-reliance, self -reservation, and self-promotion most days
and this was exhausting (Thank you Pastor Kirk, as I am borrowing your message
notes from Sunday). I still have a tendency to do all of those things and
completing resting in that truth for me is an imperfect progress. I am finding
more and more that if I step out in faith and honor my convictions and do the
creative best for my life, I have peace.
I tend to want to rush a
head and check all the boxes, make sure everything is complete. God protects me
by only giving me the demands I can handle. He carefully plans and creates
opportunities for me to learn with each experience. Then, when the time is
right I am equipped to handle the “big stuff”. I am thankful for this because
me handling or controlling anything beyond what I am capable of at the moment
becomes a disaster! I have to get back to the simple truth that I am a child of
God and give my creative best with every opportunity!